blookynose ([info]blookynose) wrote,
2006-01-21 14:41:00
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Did I do the right thing?

Another retake gone bad...made me think of one of my fav quotes from x-files:

"Time passes in moments...
Moments which, rushing past define the path of a life
just as surely as they lead towards its end.
How rarely do we stop to examine that path,
to see the reasons why all things happen,
to consider whether the path we take in life is our own making
or simply one into which we drift with eyes closed.
But what if we could stop,
pausee to take stock of each precious moment before it passes?
Might we then see the endless forks in the road that have shaped a life?
And seeing those choices,
choose another path?"

That is the exact mirror of my thoughts right now...did I do the right thing to choose to go to college? All I see around me is ppl who are much smarter than me and who have to work less than I do, to get much better results. That means I aimed too high..but it's too late now, I'm in the middle, can't go backwards and it ironically seems that I can't go forwards either:S. There's no turning back, I have to eat the cold porridge.Should I have thought more about this? Or did I just choose it because everybody else did? And if I had chosen something else would that have been better then? The only positive thing about all of this...are my friends, who keep supporting me all the time..thanks guys, you all keep me going...

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[info]freesy

January 21 2006, 16:29:35 UTC 6 years ago

Raïka. Ik weet dat ik niet in de positie zit om dit te zeggen, maar je mag je absoluut niet vergelijken met anderen, zeker niet op dit niveau. Je moet dit op je eigen tempo aanpakken. Je hebt hiervoor gekozen, je hebt al twee jaar na elkaar dapper doorgezet, nu mag je niet opgeven. Zelfs al lukt het niet altijd of zelfs al loopt hiet niet zoals je wil. Je hebt zeker niet te hoog gegrepen, je bent toch al door de kandidaturen geraakt?? Echt waar, ik bewonder je omwille van je wilskracht. Geef niet op. Ik weet dat je het kunt. Dikke knuffel. Nog veel succes en ik zie je dinsdag.

[info]blookynose

January 23 2006, 13:20:35 UTC 6 years ago

tot donderdag;).En bedankt voor de lieve woordjes, keb nu echt nood aan affectie deze dagen:).

[info]_saiph_

January 21 2006, 19:56:23 UTC 6 years ago

I understand you must be feeling bad being put under so much pressure but I can assure you that it's normal that we have doubts about our choices. it means we care. but it's not the best time to think about it, you're tired and stressed out... what I'd do is focus on studying and consider all things afterwards with a better attitude.
I believe in you and your abilities! take care, girl! :)

[info]blookynose

January 23 2006, 13:22:56 UTC 6 years ago

thanks...and also thanks for the present, haven't opened it yet;). Am gonna do it tomorrow on my birthday or maybe tonight.

[info]sometimesartist

January 21 2006, 21:52:38 UTC 6 years ago

*hugs* if it really is what you wanted to do than stick with it! I mean I know how it feels to feel like everyone around you is so much more intelligent, but than again. I like what I'm doing so well I think I'm gonna make and so will you. I believe in you! *hugs again*

[info]blookynose

January 23 2006, 13:26:11 UTC 6 years ago

thanks, I'm in serious need for affection these days;).And you're right, intelligence seems to be all around me except me:D, but I'm stubborn and mabye I'll make it because of that;).

[info]bookwormmel

January 23 2006, 04:41:23 UTC 6 years ago

*Hugs*

[info]bookwormmel

January 23 2006, 04:43:24 UTC 6 years ago

*Hugs*

Don't be so hard on youself. You are smart. Seriously don't worry about other people. Just do your best, thats all you can expect from youself.

[info]blookynose

January 23 2006, 13:28:26 UTC 6 years ago

thanks...it's just a hard few weeks now...and I can use the pep-talk now and then;).

Anonymous

January 24 2006, 08:52:39 UTC 6 years ago

Hey Raika,
Ik kan me voorstellen hoe je je nu voelt (ik wou er vorig jaar om dezelfde redenen ook voor stoppen), maar je mag jezelf niet zo neerhalen! Jij bent zeker intelligent en het is je eigen leven, met jouw vrienden, dat telt en niet dat van anderen. Het is gewoon een heel stresserende periode nu, omdat alles samenkomt (ik kan er van meesprken, k zit zelf aan de homeopathische kalmeringspillen :s). Neen, t is eigenlijk een kloteperiode :). Maar nog eventjes volhouden he en niet te veel stilstaan bij t examen dat net ni gelukt is. Nog een paar weken en het is'verlof'. En iedereen die jou pad kruist, is heel blij dat je ontmoet heeft! :) Je straalt gewoon zo'n ongelofelijk positieve energie uit!
Gelukkige verjaardag trouwens!!! Als ik je ng eens tegenkom, kan ik je kaartje aan je geven :).
Nog heel veel succes en heel veel steun!
Groetjes!
Els

[info]pigglet27

January 25 2006, 20:28:45 UTC 6 years ago

No matter what you choose, this question will remain. Although it is easy to say and hard to do, follow your heart. Above all, keep moving; forward, sideways, over or under, whatever you have to do to just. keep. moving.

/uninvited ramble

[info]blookynose

January 26 2006, 17:04:42 UTC 6 years ago

thanks, that's my usual attitude too:), but when you have certain hopes for your exams and the first one you take fails, all those walls come crashing down and it's hard to build them again. But I think I have succeeded it the past few days, since things got better! Thanks for the support, I'm gonna friend you (noticed that you were a member of Scuttlebut;)).

[info]pigglet27

January 26 2006, 19:53:25 UTC 6 years ago

I figured you were the same "blookynose" that was at Scuttlebutt. Glad things are looking up for you!
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